i dreamed a dream in time gone byyyyy...

when hope was high and life worrrth livinnnnng.
i dreamed that love would never diiiiiiiie
i dreamed that god would be forrrgivinnnnng.

no really.

last night i dreamed my house was set up like it was when i was five before we had a computer, and i got engaged to spencer on a whim, and i didnt really want to marry him, but i didnt say anything because i was excited about the prospect of engagement, and because it was several years till the wedding and i was hoping he would break it off sometime in the interval. one night i came home and my dad yelled at spencer because i didnt have my jacket on.

and i was playing rizzos understudy in grease at the time and i was terrified because it was understudy night and i didnt know the lines in sandra d and everyone just kept talking to me about the engagement and the stage was a combination of the white station stage and the overton stage and i went to sit behind the curtain to wait for my scene, and there was TONS of talking backstage so lilla (apparently to quell the noise) kept pulling the curtain open and i was so furious with her because she was ruining the show, and she said it was a totally respectable way to make people stop talking backstage, but everytime she did it there were fewer and fewer people in the audience until everyone and all the actors and everyone had left except me, lilla, ms regan, ryan, and newman.

so i freaked out and sat on the steps and i asked ryan if there was some bizarre theatre etiquette that would let lilla do that, and he said no way, but that ms regan was going to let ryan put the show on the next week at the pond at the middle school which was really grahamwood, it was just understood that it was the middle school, even though the pond was frozen and looked like a beach. he said that i could play rizzo because the girl who had the part didnt want to do the show anymore (it wasnt amanda tittle) because of what lilla did, and ryan was going to get brad jackson to play eugene.

i went outside the auditorium and it was this little old western town like in clint eastwood movies but a little less dusty and i was going to buy stationery for the wedding invitations and inside the store was a bunch of potato sacks and a ladder up to the loft, so i climbed up the ladder in this old timey gingham dress and then i woke up.