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Guilty Pleasures ('n' other stuff)

im feeling very female and not very determined. this is not a sad post. im in a good mood. i just thought you might want to know. here are some things i hanker for right now:
-brown esprit heels i saw in dillards or macys the other time with the little pink bow and the pink piping. blogger doesnt have a text color the color of this bow and this piping. theyre very bright pink.
-the other brownie in the kitchen
-the strapless dress i saw at dillards or macys with thin little yellow and white vertical stripes
-pan brigio bread, also in the kitchen
-those pink china flats with cherries on them from flashback.

thats all. well okay, its not all, but its the key things. i finished the driving book, but im still going to study it some more. maybe i can go get my permit monday or tuesday. also, im almost done with the restaurant at the end of the universe. which is scary, cause when i finish it im starting my summer reading. i feel like the dialectical journals wont be quite as scary as i think. hope im right. i went to kathryns birthday party three hours late, which is funny. we chocolate-fondued everything. another list. things that were fondued and eaten by a member of the party:
-strawberry
-brownie
-pizza
-carrot
-celery
-broccoli
-napkin
-dip
-salsa
-tortilla chip
-a pepper. blogger also doesnt have a text color for this.

i spent the night with kathryn. we watched THE ATOMIC BRAIN, which is a movie but also is an hour long. i had apple juice. and too many brownies. mmm.

LANE! I RECORDED YOUR BLOOD DRIPS ON NEWSIES SQUARE FINALLY! MORE INCENTIVE FOR YOU TO INVITE ME OVER!

[EDIT] finished restaurant at the end of the universe. ending indeed semi-lame. the rest was ver. good though. my new not-been-dropped-in-the-toilet-at-the-y phone came. so call me all the time. [/EDIT]

Why I'm Falling Over

yesterday i went to skateland at 730. then at 9 i went to morgans. we rented phantom of the opera. we ate leftover pizza. eileen was there also. she drew on my back. very cool, but it smeared. at 130am we started phantom of the opera. good movie that one. emmy rossums voice is nice. so it ended. at 4am we went to bed and at 7 we awoke. at 8 janelle came and took us to the protest. it was good. twentyish people. some kid there said he wasnt with the protest and got all this information from the camp. cool. at any rate, GIVE ME NAP-ERTY OR GIVE ME DEATH

GUYS, SPREAD THE WORD. GET IT OUT OF MEMPHIS. GET IT ANYWHERE YOU CAN.

most of you know all of this, but it needs to be everywhere. take it, share it, spread it. put info on your blogs and livejournals even if you think no one who doesnt already know will read it, cause maybe they will.

REMEMBER: those of you who know the whole scoop, DONT NAME NAMES. we dont want to make it any worse for you know who.

this was on the eyewitness news website. (myeyewitnessnews.com/news/local/story.aspx?content_id=E46B7C69-EBD7-4429-A26F-DFC31CC02016)
Turning Gay Teens Straight Posted: 6/6/2005 10:54:44 PM
Angry protesters battle it out with members of a Mid-South group who are trying to turn gay teens straight! Protesters say the Christian based organization “Love In Action” is brain washing kids and putting them in danger. The program’s organizers say they’re giving gay teens a guide to a straight lifestyle, through prayer.

Reverend John Smid says “The truth is that if someone is expressing themselves homosexually, they are involving themselves in inappropriate sexual conduct.” Smid has been the executive director of “Love In Action” for the past 19 years. He makes no apologies for his strong beliefs about gay and lesbian lifestyles. Smid says he used to be gay, and says sexual exploration by youth is out of control. “Youth are involved in sexual expression through internet pornography through internet communications and physical relationships in heterosexual and homosexual ways, it’s all out of control.” Rev. Smid says “Love In Action” only aligns teens’ sexuality with their parents Christian beliefs.

Protesters showed up in front of the refuge today to protest. Janelle Treibitz says it’s wrong to force kids to participate. “They lump homosexuals with drug and alcohol abuse as if it’s somehow on the same plane, as if it’s something that needs to be treated or healed.”

Protesters fear the long-term effects on families. One protester says “When you have these very natural feelings and you are forced into something like this from your parents who you would hope would be a center of love and guidance and support for you, it’s just a really harmful thing.”

Janelle Treibitz says not every teen needs intervention, rather understanding. “Some of these children are not struggling; they know their sexual identities but parents won’t accept it so they send them here. But those who are struggling and have questions, there are psychologists that can be seen.”

http://www.livejournal.com/users/morgankissboys/ (<--all the protest info is here)
http://www.inoohr.org/ (<--international organization of heterosexual rights. hit it up if youre not quite angry enough yet)
http://www.asafeplace.org (<--the camps webwsite)

every time i think about this whole thing i want to scream. i cant possibly imagine what these kids will go through in these next weeks. show up to these protests, kids. make signs, come ready, and get heard. ill be at them whenever i can. if your parents wont let you go, stay the night at a friends house and go with them in the morning. its time we did something about this. support your friends, support gays, straights, and everyone in between.

whatever happened to god loving everyone?

EDIT
this was myeyewitnessnews.com's daily poll.

Poll Results: Do you agree with programs that try to convert homosexuals to heterosexuals?
Yes: 10.0%
No: 88.8%
I don't know: 1.2%

the good news: most of memphis that voted is on our side. the bad news: Yes: 10.0% who are these people?

UPDATED POLL RESULTS:

Do you agree with programs that try to convert homosexuals to heterosexuals?
Yes: 16.5%
No: 82.3%
I don't know: 1.2%

EDIT II:

FROM THE EXECUTIVE DIRECTOR OF LOVE IN ACTION:"I would rather you commit suicide than have you leave Love In Action wanting to return to the gay lifestyle. In a physical death you could still have a spiritual resurrection; whereas, returning to homosexuality you are yielding yourself to a spiritual death from which there is no recovery." --The Final Indoctrination from John Smid, Director, Love In Action (LIA)

/EDITS

Most Heinous Evening.

that is, i had a weird dream. ill get to it. first i went to spencer mississippi. innocent bystanders would never suspect we were friends, seeing us there with him playing halo [or something] and me reading the entirety of the sisterhood of the traveling pants. but we had like an hour (out of seven) of friendly time. we watched whos line together and i threw a pillow at him for making fun of gilmore girls. it was like in a movie, but we didnt fall in love. there was so much food i almost died. and though i did eat an inordinate amount, it was still less than i would have without some serious determination and spencers friend robert (?) there so i could say "hey, you want this hushpuppy? you want this piece a' meat?" to him.

the tv just said: "no self-respecting van travels anywhere without a sauna." and it said it in some sort of eastern european voice.

our parents and all their friends (none of whom have a daughter but mine) built the biggest fire weve seen in a while cause thats what they do when they get slightly-to-rather drunk. then i read some more. my parents and their friends could think of nothing to say to me all night but "theres sara the smart one reading" and "whatcha reading?" and "youre not finished with that book yet?" and "dont you want a lamp?" listen here: I DO NOT NEED A LAMP. I CAN READ IN THIS LIGHT. STOP TELLING ME ILL HURT MY EYES. sorry, but it was ALL night. anyway, when we headed off at like almost 11, i read in the car by the light of my phone. finished the traveling pants book as we pulled into the driveway and went to bed. kay, now ill get to the dream.

so we were in this place. what this place was varied between a boat and the east gym. i totally forgot the order in which the events took place, so okay. heres all i remember.
1) we (whoever we were) were on this like long term mission or something. aragorn was there. with his two kids. he was a cute daddy. we were sitting outside talking and his kids were cute.
2) my phone rang in the hall on the second floor of the main building (you know in the t) and i ran into the bathroom which was where the stairs are to turn it off but i was all limpy, then i escaped through the back door in one of the stalls back directly into the east gym.
3) there was some natural disaster and i was walking through the ship which had been looted and rolled and stuff and in the back was ashlee simpson and there were these two boys who were maybe like 11 and i told them to go get something for ashlee simpson but they needed a swimsuit to get into the public pool you know so i gave them the batsuit but it was red and they took it and went to get whatever it was they were gonna get.
4) the east gym was way bigger and we had to march in lines and take out the garbage.

like, wtf, mates? i dont even know.

today i went to old navy, tj maxx, and target to find comfy activewear. old navy had tanks for two for ten ducks. then i went to the YMCA for AB ATTACK. man, it lived up to its name. now im going to morgans hizzle. and thats it.

WHAT THE F

in just over a one-week period, i lose three things i need to survive.

(in other news, cooked everything in mouses house, joined the Y, went to mercers party, possibly tied some friendship knots with lilla.)

Sara - (Lena + Amelia + Mouse) = 0

Feelin' Down (again, sorry guys)

yknow what bites?

losing friends.

WHAT.

NO.

why? where is the personality conflict? because i prefer sleep to burns? because i like lo mein? i dont understand.

its summer. where is the love?

Eatin' Good in the Neighborhood

its the obligatory school out post... PART DEUX!
(because last year i had one too)

(i flickr'd, guys: http://flickr.com/photos/honeylight/sets/366853/ )

i spent the beginning hours of the summer embodying the summer mood. after moved, eileen, morgan, and i went to IHOP. then we took mouse home and drove past hunter thompsons house, where there were a million cop cars cause someone was shooting a gun in the air. but justin didnt get arrested. then we went to eileens and swam in the dark for like an hour or more, dried off and slept outside on the trampoline, which was amazing. got up and had pancakes and swam again, walked to the mall and tried on several ridiculous things (actually i found one dress i liked but it was one size too small and cost 54 ducks), walked home, invited devin over and decided to have a lemonade stand in front of justins house without telling him, but he was off for jackson so we decided to do it to mouse cause we'd already made lemonade, but eileen and devin had an impulse and jumped in the pool so we just drank it and swam again, then lay on the hot black trampoline for a while feeling much like iguanas and acquiring a lovely pink hue all the while. but that was just me. when i left my mom and i went to buy her some shoes but we bought me some instead. theyre very summer. one pair is yellow and one is blue. i still want some orange crocs (you know, those rubberyplasticy shoes with the holes all in 'em.)

heres what i know about my exams
latin: probably like a B
choir: 96
gym: probably a 98 cause i forgot how many points a somethinorother was worth
munt: 98
clue: 97
bio: probably like a B

so thats probably four A's and two B's which, considering exams are not my forte (theyre probably my pianissimo), is pretty good. last semester i got four B's and two A's.

novus concert: actual success. there were over 200 people there. sweet. i love you if you came. and listen here,
IF YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD COME AND YOU DONT HAVE A DECENT REASON FOR WHY YOU DIDNT, I HAVE NO PROBLEM HUNTING YOU DOWN AND WREAKING HAVOC UPON YOUR BONES UNTIL I HAVE SMITTEN YOUR RUIN ON THE MOUNTAINSIDE.
moved this weekend was great. i love you if you came. i didnt consider myself all free and clear until almost 5:30 today when i left strike after the last performance. and listen here,
IF YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD COME AND YOU DONT HAVE A DECENT REASON FOR WHY YOU DIDNT, I HAVE NO PROBLEM HUNTING YOU DOWN AND WREAKING HAVOC UPON YOUR BONES UNTIL I HAVE SMITTEN YOUR RUIN ON THE MOUNTAINSIDE.

i repeated for emphasis.

anyway, my family (being me, mom, dad, drew, cody, and cody counts as family now because seriously, when was the last time she slept at HER house?) went to applebees after the show, and i must say the service there has vastly improved. also, their shrimp fettucini alfredo now comes in a bowl. cody and i got almost the same thing, shirley temple and all, except her fettucini alfredo had chicken in it. but it was in a bowl too.

did anyone go to that douglass meeting? or do any lovey bunny rising juniors wanna give me any helpful hints on those dialectical journals? im gunna buy the books tomorrow. well, its my mothers money.

also tomorrow, STAR WARS. im going to see it on the super massive its-like-watching-the-side-of-an-office-building screen downtown. im excited. beifuss liked it. ima get a pretzel. yeewoo.

anyone know of a place thatll hire me at my wee age and pay at least, yknow, almost minimum wage? hit me up.

I Love You Guys

for real.

two more days of exams, a weekend of Moved, then i can sleep off this mess. i really love you guys.

"If you weren't in high school, I'd take you all to a bar right now. We SO need a release." - Mr. Williams

true dat.

mouse, please dont move.

Here's Something I Don't Talk About Ever

well, kids, its roughly midnight between mays 14 and 15. and, kids, we all know being up late without company can get you kinda down. it does me anyway. so im gunna just say a couple of things and you can guess how im feeling. and though i appreciate the "aw i love you" comments, if you can think of something more unique, do. here:

1) the dancing at parties kind of dancing is not something i do.
2) today i wanted to be good but ate several servings of cheetos instead.
3) when i had bronchitis i lost six pounds and gained it back within a month.
4) in my recent effort to slim down, ive gained seven pounds.

heres something else:

1) i miss my hair.
2) it won't be that long again for about five years.
3) i dont have the effort to straighten it every other day.
4) ps: if ive recently said to you jokingly GOD I DID IT JUST FOR YOU, remember that many a truth is said in jest.

one more thing:

mean what you say.

holy moses!

i livejournaled, you guys. what.
www.livejournal.com/~ancilladelectat

It's Not Much, But It's Also 10:39

so, wtf? what happened to the 04-05 school year? im glad i guess, that its been fast, but if all of high school takes three minutes like this has, ill miss all the fun. like. NINE DAYS. and for the next four, i wont sleep much. but s'cool. i can deal, eh? say eh. so then, we bought ice cream. and i want a chocolate-covered animal cracker. and guess what. WE HAVE SOME.

i love you guys, but its tech week. will you see me much? most unlikely. eileen says something like: the ratio of rehearsal to not rehearsal has been staggeringly in favor of rehearsal lately.

true dat, mista.
"git up and hump yourself jim!"

M1 Gr4Mm3R Sk1LlZ PwN U!!1!one!111!!!

Your English Skills:

Grammar: 100%

Punctuation: 100%

Spelling: 100%

Vocabulary: 100%

Does Your English Cut the Mustard?

in other news, today i saw a film called millions at the ridgeway four. its brilliant. thats all you get.

Today, No Verbs.

a schedule...

Friday, 42205
730-215: school
230-4: chamber
4-6: novus
5-730: thespian banquet
8-945: metamorphoses (fabulous both times)
10: home
1001: sleep

Saturday, 42305
11: commencement of novus
1130: awakening
1145: arrival at novus
2: end of novus
2-330: moved rehearsal
345: morgans house
4: home
530-6: shower (glorious)
6-635: dinner
640-650: dishes
7-945: film time et chillaxin with emma, lena, mouse. pleasant.
now: the blog.

less fortunate:
a cough
a headache
a wisdom tooth, perhaps?
a nasty bruise

more fortunate (reasons for happiness):
gabriel damon
nothing in the morning
arrival of some films (HGttG, Batman, War of the Worlds, Star Wars)
one last show with michael ingersoll
Hartazasele, TX
claire danes
four weeks of school
boys with smiles like spot's
smell of apples
the cottars
a book club next year
theatre
a flat pilllow

Another short one

just wanted to acknowledge:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MR MUNTER.

also, hes not coming back next year. why? because hes going to vanderbilt or whatever to get a phd in math. loser. couldnt he wait another year? i will have a sucky algebra: PART DEUX!

one month before today was my birthday. one day after today is peters birthday. so we and mr munter are connected. hes twice my age now, which makes it even weirder than im in love with him.

we have a test tomorrow. dadgum.

hamlet premiere is tomorrow! im excited! but i wont get to see spencer bohren at otherlands. ah well, ill catch him during school.

i bought that stupid datamatch thing. i am compatible with the following:
FIVE asians
two meeks
one jason sullivan
one joseph williams
two evans
one bagpipe-weilding basketballer.

i so win.

thats enough or it wont count as a short post. im pushin it as it is.
im out like stuart dickey in a talkin-smack-about-bush contest.

Back

okay im back.

in short:
didnt write anything good at camp.
i can tell its spring cause everyones dating.
i have a gross cough.
there is a book report due tomorrow.
we MUST have a girly night this weekend.

Gone

gone to lakeshore for the weekend, finally. not lakeSIDE. if you need me, i have my phone. i wont answer, but ill call you back. lovelovelovelove. there must be a god. if there wasnt, this week would never have ended.

P.S. i cant think of a ps. so find robert langdon.

Some Goals

tonight i have:
started my poetry explication
done one fourth of my book report
run a mile
showered
done bio homework

tonight i will:
study for the ch16 test in bio
study for the ch17 test in bio
memorize 18 lines of the highwayman
read 20 pages in the da vinci code

tomorrow i will:
finish my poetry explication
do one more fourth of my book report
memorize 18 more lines of the highwayman
complete whatever math we will have
read 20 more pages in the da vinci code
go to novus

by this weekend i will:
finish my book report
recite all 102 lines of the highwayman
read about 100 pages of the da vinci code
memorize 52 lines in romeo and juliet
tell mr williams i wont be at novus saturday
go to writers retreat and enjoy two days of blessed release from school.

Go! Go! Go! Go!

go shawdy, ish ya burfday, we gon pawdy like ish ya birfday, we gon sip... ovaltine? like ish ya burfday...

yeah. thats enough. but im so old now! of course, you stop feeling older on birthdays between like, 12 and 27, but still. so heres the jones. i think i caught the feel older bug because of a few changes that accompanied this day. like how i got a cell phone. (!!!!) please call me on nights and weekends all the time. 2390825. and you know, i still love you during the day, but 59 second phone calls ARE possible. lets make it happen. another big change many of you know about but some dont, i wont tell you. see for yourself. and also, lena made me buy makeup. not too much, but still. it counts.

friday i went to morgans for star wars. had horrible cramps, but they laid off after a while (thank you aleve!) it was fun anyway. saturday my mother took me all over the place for the best day. we saw janelle at lunch in the little french place where we ate, went by painted planet and java, saw mystery of the nile at the imax, and went to bride and prejudice. yesterday we had dinner at chilis. yaybeans. today is my birthday, and i am going places with ms june because we do it every year. shes supposed to be here... half an hour ago. but you know how the scudders are.

im liking this change. its easier. 10 minutes total? how sweet is that bowl of mushrooms?

im out like justin in a no-mentioning-the-daily-show contest.

Alas, Alas for you

last night a conclusion was reached: jesus is not anorexic.

and for that, he deserves the hug i gave him.


its almost my birthday.