01 March 2006

Uplift Thyself

TRUTHS:
  • sara is not in a state of motivation.
  • sara is in a state of tired.
  • sara is in a state of tennessee.
  • sara is in need of more hours in a day.
  • sara is in need of spring break.
  • sara is in need of advice.
  • sara should see her counselor.
FALSITIES:
  • saras english assignment is worth the time.
  • sara is in control of herself.
  • sara is a good driver.
  • sara enjoys cauliflower.
UPLIFT THYSELF!:
imagine a situation or two or a lot the thought of which makes you happy:
  • imagine a world where sara and morgan go to the same college.
  • imagine a world where sara is not taught by ms douglas every day.
  • imagine a world where sara gets nine hours of sleep every night.
  • imagine a world where sara is not semi-secretly very tempted by drugs and alcohol.
  • imagine college.
  • imagine summer.
  • imagine sleeping until waking, not until being awoken.
  • imagine a boy.
  • imagine lakeshore.
  • imagine clean, strong fingernails.
  • imagine never itching again.
  • imagine time.
  • imagine having time.

TRUTH:

  • sara misses time, sleep, josh brown, her friends, being comfortably warm, spending time, not having guilt, forgetting regret, smelling spring.

imagine a world where all those things are here all at once. uplift thyself.

23 February 2006

A Little Stress... A Little Stress...

i daydream about sleeping more than i actually sleep.

12 February 2006

SNOW

SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW on friday. its still here. look at it! (you have to scroll down a little to get to the snow ones)

05 February 2006

A Little Less... A Little Less...

theres a fair chance i get a B in latin this six weeks and yknow? that thought is really not killin me.

27 January 2006

wtf is this? why is it in my bookmarks?

12 January 2006

ATTENTION

ALL WHO INTEND TO ATTEND THE

HEATH LEDGER EXTRAVAGANZA

(AND EVERYONE IS INVITED) NEEDS TO LISTEN TO ME NOW. BROKEBACK KONG (AKA BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN) IS SELLING OUT ALL OVER THE MOFO. THE EXTRAVAGANZA IS GOING TO BE 1:00 CASANOVA KONG AND 3:15 BROKEBACK KONG AT STUDIO ON THE SQUARE THIS SUNDAY. IF YOU WANT TO GO YOU NEED TO PREORDER YOUR BROKEBACK KONG TICKET LIKE RRL RRL SOON.

also, all in favor of following the heath ledger extravaganza with a 7:10 tristan and kong (aka tristan and isolde) at the paradiso say aye. tristan and kong isnt playing at studio and brokeback kong isnt playing at paradiso.

so anyway, comment if youre coming or call me or tell me at school or something. i love you guys.

(ps. its not really kong, youre just supposed to put kong in every movie title cause its funny. really its casanova, brokeback mountain, and tristan and isolde.)

31 December 2005

THIS IS THE HOUR.

its 10.23. i always have a weird feeling about that time. 10.23. it just seems odd. anyway, 2006 comes in about an hour and a half, which is quite soon. i hereby vow to make 2006 better than 2005. at least the 10th grade part of 2005. its been insane, and not in a good way. i need to step up my game, so here're a few resolutions. actually, a lot.

  • first and foremost, make 2006 better than 2005. also:
  • stop eating all the time
  • get back out of the habit of not doing all of my homework every night
  • try to make time to go back to the Y somehow
  • observe lent without cheating, except once on my birthday (which is inconveniently always during lent) [EDIT:Sometime after Lent] I was awesome. And now I make way fewer Yo Mama jokes.
  • be less pessimistic about alto I (N/A)
  • be less pessimistic in general
  • (there is a resolution here that is private)
  • save more money than i spend
  • not buy anything that doesn't fit
  • be nicer to my parents
  • eat more vegetables and drink more water
  • give up on sean (because seriously, thats a both hopeless cause and a bad idea)
  • apply for 10 scholarships
  • stop scratching my knees and elbows all the time
  • improve my posture
  • get rid of everything i own that i dont like (who wants some stuff?)
  • get to school earlier than 725 every day
  • overcome fear of at least one of the following: sleeping with my ears exposed, dancing, report cards, lindsay douglas
  • grow out my hair and wash it more often
  • get more sleep
  • keep up with all my reading
  • take 100 walks and keep count
  • get something overpriced from victoria secret [EDIT: 11 March 2006] Check! IPEX goes wireless!
  • brush my teeth twice every day
  • forget justins phone number [EDIT: 6 May 2006] I sure don't remember it.
  • write

thats enough for now. its 27.

im giving up my vices. / im goin back, back to school. / eviction or not, this weeks been so hot / but long as ive got you i know ill be cool. / last week, i wanted just to disappear, / my life was dust / but now if just may be a happy new year.

happy new year.

29 December 2005

A Slightly Late Christmas List

or, what i got, not what i want. plus a million links to pictures of stuff. overall a good catch.

DVD's:
CD's:
Book-like things:
  • 20 b&n ducks (a duck is a buck)
  • 10 b&n ducks
  • an iou for any book at bookstar
Clothing items:
  • AE peacoat/blazer thingy (but in light khaki)
  • AE sparkly brown flats
  • three aero shirts (the entire store was half off) in white, grey, brown
  • sears blue skirt unt jackety thing
  • old navy shirt. brown.
IOU's:
  • iou a book from bookstar (the same one as before)
  • iou a RENT shirt (hopefully ill find one thats not "for small individuals only")
  • iou reasonable parental assistance with room decor (which means when drew moves out i get his room and we're getting new curtains and pillows and things and taking up the carpet and getting a rug etc etc etc)
Other:
  • iHome (which is a machine that plays your ipod aloud and charges it and has an alarm clock and a radio and you can hook up a cd player to it.)
  • blockbuster giftcard
  • 50 ducks from work (christmas bonus)
  • from eileen-- a bluish hat, a pink purse, a black sleep shirt that says ARCHITECTURE on it, and the deee-lite cd world clique (insane). yay for the goodwill.
  • 50 ducks from mimi (my grandmother, not the best ass below 14th street, though that would be really cool)
  • a gigabunch of candy
  • 10 malco ducks
  • probably some other things.

24 December 2005

"MERRY CHRISTMAS, BITCHES!" --Tom Collins

it is, right now,

december 24th, 9pm, eastern standard time.

17 December 2005

Like Mastercard but Better

MLA Handbook: $17.00
Pocket Thesaurus: $5.99
Vocabulary Workshop Form G: $8.00
Le Morte D'Arthur: $7.95
A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court: $4.95
The Once and Future King: $7.99
Antigone: $7.95
Cry, the Beloved Country: $14.00
The Tragedy of Julius Caesar: $4.99
Two packs of hiliters (because the first ran out): $19.98
(TOTAL: $98.80)

The English Exam Being over: PRICELESS

08 December 2005

The Year in Short

Instructions: take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2005. That's your year in review. except im going to do from the last post of each month cause its easier cause theyre at the top.

January (29)
I'm Dead I'm Dead I'm Dead I Died I'm Dead

February (20)
imagination, one was awesome this weekend. and last.

March (14)
go shawdy, ish ya burfday, we gon pawdy like ish ya birfday, we gon sip... ovaltine? like ish ya burfday...

April (23)
a schedule...
Friday, 42205
730-215: school
230-4: chamber
4-6: novus
5-730: thespian banquet
8-945: metamorphoses (fabulous both times)
10: home
1001: sleep

May (30)
i went to spencer mississippi. innocent bystanders would never suspect we were friends, seeing us there with him playing halo [or something] and me reading the entirety of the sisterhood of the traveling pants.

June (29)
at about 10:39PM tonight, after his performance of lumiere in beauty and the beast, MICHAEL A. INGERSOLL KISSED MY FACE.

July (27)
The Summer of Amelia!
http://flickr.com/photos/honeylight/sets/654301/
enjoy.

August (30)
Probably Like the Best 24-Hour Period Ever
[mood: walkin on sunshine]

[music: hold me, bat boy]

September (21)
Uncle! Uncle!
there. that was me saying uncle. i give up.

(some other stuff)
LIFE OVER. HOMEWORK = VERY YES.

October (25)
This weekend I was productive for the first time in about two years.
~Three Affiliated Tribes~

Driving to North Dakota is like lighting your
Arm on fire: at first it looks kind of cool,
But you just end up screaming in agony.

November (29)
"I DONT WANT TO LEARN. I JUST WANT TO DIE." -Sarah Mercer

December
(well my last post in december hasnt happened yet, and this is the first one, so here it is. lets end where we began.)
The Year in Short
Instructions: take the first sentence (or 2) from the first post of each month of 2005. That's your year in review.

29 November 2005

"I DONT WANT TO LEARN. I JUST WANT TO DIE."
-Sarah Mercer

12 November 2005

Dear Scientific Community,

IF YOU DONT DEVELOP A PRODUCT RIGHT NOW THAT WILL MAKE MY KNEES STOP ITCHING FOR GOOD I AM GOING TO SCRATCH THEM UNTIL MY LEGS FALL OFF. AND THEN I AM GOING TO SUE.

Thank you,
Sara

05 November 2005

And the Daddy Tomato Said, "Ketchup!"

november 3: morgans birthday
november 4: austin finneys birthday
november 5: mercers birthday

that is a lot. happy birthday to all of you.

so, since i last blogged, in no particular order:
i was late to novus because i went to four music stores (cats, pop tunes, spin street, tower) to get the RENT movie soundtrack, and i cant even listen to the second disc because i made a pact with myself to wait till i saw the movie. but they put la vie boheme on disc 2! the week of death ended monday morning. sweet. except now we have the veryvery intimidating
JULIUS CAESAR PROJECT
which, i have no doubt, will eat me. plus i have to read it. blast. i do, however, get to be brutus to justins caesar in act three. o, how ive dreamed of the day.
i didnt really say anything about writers retreat before. it was AMAZING. o, it has been too long.
yesterday morgan came home with me for a while, i went to see broadminded mental brains again, mercer, em, lilla, and k.ho showed, and afterwards eileen, morgan, lilla, mercer, andy harper and i walked to tcby, then eileen and i went to morgans and watched something about the cosby show, and morgan made o god pie. we ate it for breakfast, and it does live up to its name, especially with chocolate sauce. O GOD PIE. you dont even know.
today we watched the bbc narnia and i came home and had an english muffin plus spaghettti sauce for lunch, tonight at six i go to work, at nine i get off, and at 945 i hope i hope i hope someone will go see shopgirl with me at studio. hope hope hope. i love claire danes.
wednesday i go back to the dermatologist, thank god, and i can get some more of that stuff because my knees are driving me crazy itchy for real. im finna tear em up.
what else? i always forget to go to the bank and end up not cashing my check for like a week. speaking of money, if you were going to buy an ipod, would you get All You Need Is Love engraved on it or No Day But Today? because i am torn.
i need to go read julius caesar and take a shower. this paragraph only exists because i havent used red yet.

25 October 2005

This weekend I was productive for the first time in about two years.

~Three Affiliated Tribes~

Driving to North Dakota is like lighting your
Arm on fire: at first it looks kind of cool,
But you just end up screaming in agony.
Lighting your arm on fire is not an experiment
I suggest, but since you must, make the most
Of it. Driving to North Dakota, I hid behind
The melting wheel, slouched, blasting that one band
With the windows up so the one car I passed
Between Missouri and Nebraska could only
Hear the bass line, a soft testimony to my
Presence, chair back as far as it goes, bobbing
My head invisible to the climax chord of that

One song. Arriving in North Dakota is like
Lighting a long candle and standing, silent,
Waiting for the wax to burn you. Arriving in
North Dakota I found I could lean forward,
Sit up, roll down the window and breathe
Trees, tilting my grip forward on the wheel so
The wax pooled harmlessly on the speedometer.

Staying in North Dakota is much like coming
Home to a lit fire and a rousing game of
"What's your inner Southern accent?" Staying in
North Dakota I slept miles above the floor, and
The house smelled like cumin and cinnamon,
Just crazy enough to work, to put me to
Sleep under too many feathers. Perfect
Timing for another nap after lunch. (Staying
In North Dakota is like finally striking a match
In the Yukon and making it without stranding
Your dog.) Three coats and a nightcap later, I
Was back on the floor, feet bare, curling my
Toes around the edge of a step, curling my
Fingers into my back. I felt smoke as
The match singed me briefly before going

Out. Leaving North Dakota is like driving into
A forest fire, collarbones aching to turn back
And feeling the first unwelcome heat. Leaving
North Dakota I broke the sound barrier in a
Midsize '98 something-or-other, taking
On the end full throttle with nothing to lose
But too many feathers. The one car I passed
Between Nebraska and Missouri saw me,
Chair forward as far as it goes, flying from
Three coats and a nightcap, sure to get as
Far and as fast as I could from North
Dakota before I changed my mind, sure
To go back to short sleeves immediately,
Sure to keep driving until the burning forest
Was gone.

20 October 2005

O Bless the Lord, My Soul

it did it. its finally come. i am going to lakeshore. tomorrow.
*crosses fingers for josh brown being there*

(i havent packed.
im going to bed.
ill pack tomorrow.
really fast.)

15 October 2005

WHATCHU LOOKIN' AT?!

that last post was ridiculous. its only purpose was to attract more spam comments. i dont even know what was going on. hopefully this one will be a little more comprehensible.

next weekend im going to camp really nice bathrooms. (thats lakeshore.) im very excited. with me, eileen, ruby, beaver, and dunkan, we will defeat the sarah cobb girls. and plus theres no sarah cobb. just some people like her. and troy, allison, maybe josh brown *crosses fingers*? okay, this doesnt matter so you if youre not beaver or eileen. the point is its gonna be awesome but i wish austin finneys birthday party was another weekend. because I WAS INVITED TO IT. HOW AWESOME IS THAT JUNT. HE STRAIGHTENS HIS HAIR.

so yesterday i was at school until five because mercer was coming home with me and she had rehearsal. dunkan snuck out of rehearsal so she could co home with me. ha! well we had fun, played in ms kitts's room and outside. plus the most amazing event occurred...

me, dunkan, mercer: *stand outside*
*school bus drives by*
people on bus: *SHOUT things that arent quite words at us*
us: *look*
them: WHATCHU LOOKIN AT?! YEAH WE BLACK!

so, yeah. amazing.
the acoustic why georgia is quite good. i like the alabaster and wine mix. speaking of that kinda, lenas and my friendship is like, not even. we dont even talk. when was the last time i did something with her? i dont even know. crazy.

mouse, please eat a hamburger (or nine boca burgers). i cant even handle you being that skinny. for serious. i bet you cant even give blood.

WHATCHU LOOKIN' AT?! YEAH WE BLACK!

Dee Ee Dee

Sara is going to be ded.
D. E. D.
ded.

no wait, that was thursday night. LORD.

i went kite-flying today with lilla. wtf?

01 October 2005

The rain in Memphis stays mainly in the EVERYWHERE.

i dont have a gigabunch of time. im at work and i have to start working in like 20 minutes. but for the time being, lets just say this is more fun than "close reading" is. for real.

so next saturday i dont have novus. and unless freak engine was last night, its next friday night. basically what im saying is this: lets go.

i saw secondhand lions today, and it was good enough to watch. mom came home with it at 330 and was all LETS WATCH A MOVIE. so we and dad watched it. there was popcorn and ovaltine and overall a good almost two hours spent. but then i had to superhurry and shower and be at work at 6. i was here at 607, but guess what: it doesnt matter cause i dont do anything till seven. i also watched the food network and part of gladiator. as you can tell, this moring after getting up and going to novus and coming back, ive done nothing productive at all. tomorrow, though, i need to do some serious algdeux project-ing because its due thursday and lord knows i dont have any spare time during the week.

so mom drove me to work and its a good thing too, because its raining like the dickens. however, i didnt find that out until it was too late to change out of my fakenstocks, so i had to carry them snugly under moms giant umbrella up the way from the gate to the door. they survived fairly well, id say. i forgot my nametag but seriously, no one cares THAT much.

(note: i know all of you know this, im just writing it down for the record)
so there are like 19 fights a day at white station. i really dont get how people can get that mad at each other that often. we're never ever gonna get to wear jeans. ever. i really dont understand how dr winette could have let 2272 people into a school built to be comfy at 1500 and packed at 1900.

well. its about time to go get ready for the fun and excitement of calling out a gabuncha numbers a gabuncha times (we're talking bingo here, people), so im off to go do that. now where did i put my shoes? i dont even know.

21 September 2005

Uncle! Uncle!

there. that was me saying uncle. i give up. after twelve comments, four of them from beaver and five of them just telling me its time to blog again, its time to blog again.

first, id like to make the distinction that i fully intended to blog on, what was it?, monday, but the power went out. while i was in the shower. as fun as that was, it left me doing homework in the dark and unable to blog. when it came back on eileen came over because she forgot her history book and we dictated the section out loud. unfortunately, it was the wrong section. fortunately, we didnt have a quiz. eileens class did, though. poor eileen.

now we'll back up. here comes an overview of everything i did since my last post, probably not in order. but first some excuses. yeah, okay, its been a while, but by now you all should know that whenever something very important happens that i want to make sure everyone i know has a chance to read, naturally im going to leave the post about it up for a while, about two weeks. and you may be saying, "but sara, its been three!" yes, well, i got busy. last week was full and therefore get over it. okay, carrying on. heres what i remember of the past few weeks.
LIFE OVER.
HOMEWORK = VERY YES.
fast though the first six weeks has been (and it ends monday if you somehow dont know), it has also been busy and busy. i was gonna put something else there but i couldnt think of a synonym for busy other than... busy. so, that first week the tuesday of which i last blogged was really only semi busy. on saturday i went to orientation at trezevant. not that terrible except it started at 830. in the morning. so yeah. i got out a little early (about 11) but since i can only work three hours a day i didnt have to do bingo that night. so, yay. i probably did something with morgan or eileen. maybe not. i dont know.
that sunday night i went to see cory branan, my favorite local artist after scandyvan. since i last (and first) saw him he has cut his hair and shaved less. this concert (at the center for southern folklore) was short and, because he busted his acoustic, was played on electric guitar, one of the strings of which he destroyed at one point during the concert and of course kept playing. this concert, despite its drawbacks (the hair, the shave, the length, and the guitar) was still excellent. most assuredly my favorite part(s) was when the mic malfunctioned, which it did at least thrice, he stepped onto the stairs and sang really loud and said "well this works better anyway" and it did. if you dont know about him you should go listen to some of his music on his website. excellence. this was september 4th. the next day was labor day and we didnt have school. sweet.
the next week was a bit busier than that one, but i did pretty well and got a 100 on the history test (mesopotamia). sweet. wednesday the seventhe (haha, seventhe) was my first pay day. holy moly. brokeness over. ducks = very yes. (ducks are dollars. eileen did it.) every two weeks i get about 170 ducks. almost half goes in the bank, but the rest goes towards a) the stuff thats not worth the money fund AKA me getting an ipod, b) going to nighttime movies, c) probably a whole bunch of cds, and d) YOUR christmas presents. thats right, i have money, you can start sucking up... NOW.
[EDIT] I WROTE LIKE FIVE PARAGRAPHS AFTER THIS AND BLOGGER FCKING DELETED THEM. FCKING PLANNED MAINTAINANCE. [/EDIT]
thursday i went to see tick tick boom with my mom. we had terrible seats. friday i went again with eileen and morgan but got there half an hour early. seats still sucked. it was like sitting in the left wing. saturday i went to nathfaces birthday party (me, lane, sean, lena, afton, kasidey, ali, mpc, broken flowers which lena and i didnt pay for, but i dont feel bad cause i hated that movie), then afton and i went to hatties for cakeand smallville. this was a much more detailed account the first time i typed it. went to bingo and then sunday afternoon went to tick tick boom again. thanks to my getting there an hour before it started, dunkan and i had great seats. being able to see all three faces certainly enhanced the experience.
the next week was the busiest yet. tuesday i auditioned for novus. it didnt take long and having rehearsals at crichton will be nice cause its three blocks from my house and right next door to trez. tuesday i went to the dermatologist right after school and got some stuff. turns out i have exzema. who knew? then mom took me to arbys (mmm) then to work. thursday i got an email from mr williams telling me id be singing alto I. i was most distraught seeing as ive always been alto II. im writing an email to mr williams that explains how if he doesnt let me sing alto II ill be a bum and live with my parents flipping burgers till im thirty. dont worry, ill make it work. friday i got a math teacher and had a history test on india. got a 99. score.
friday night a very unlikely event occurred. i hung out with lilla. it was nice. she came over from about 630-1030 or so and we had a good deal of fun. watched the food network, walked to geekers, and i taught her some life lessons and learned a few myself (among them: never assume that a person knows what ovaltine is or what a george forman grill does). overall, rather good times. i went to bed pretty much right after she left. the next day was cooper young. i went with kathryn about 230 but throughout found yuntin (justin), chris, leo, dunkan, emma, zoe, alanna, morgan fox, xander, kristen howell, and probably some other people im rudely leaving out. mom bought me some earrings and i got fourhenna tattoos from emma. w00t. also i bought a milkshake. then went to bingo, came home and slept. (NOTE: this is how far i was when blogger ate my post. except it was about 30% longer.)
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sunday the 18th was latin project day. you see, i had a latin project due monday that no one started before the last weekend. so i started about two and worked pretty consistently until 630, when i went tp spencer mississippi for a while, ate burgers, worked on latin, came home, worked on latin, and finally finished around 1130. that completion was quite gratifying. my mosaic says BEWARE BEE and has a bee on it. but i forgot to give the bee wings. monday i turned it in. this is getting very pastel.
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now we are to yesterday. had novus rehearsal and sang a whole lot of notes that were really not in my range. of course that was HUGE fun except not. did mercers latin homework cause shes in latin I and AP world and im sure she had a lot of AP world studying that couldnt be disrupted by latin one homework. so yeah. today i went to school and in chemistry had candy and dropped a quiz, came home, showered, and came to work at 4. since 449 i have been on this computer doing nothing work related because im done with everything. this job would be perfect if the office werent so cold. tomorrow i have numeroud tests becasue the six weeks is almost over, and friday is a half day. lets make this weekend great, people.
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okay, so you wanted a post, and i gave you what you want. now you give me what you all know i want because everyone wants them. you know. its not hard. just type and hit enter. like pie. it has taken me an hour and a half to write this post, so really, its the least you can do.